Saturday, October 31, 2009

my beloved one .



We promised. We wished. We Hoped.
Its gonna be end soon . i guess .
i wont smile i perfect smile when the time you leave me.
how i wished again , i could hug you one more time .
kiss your tender lips one more time .
touched your face , for the last time .
Do you know how im feeling now ?
im feeling so down that i wanted to die right now .
without you now , how could i smile ?
how could i live my life ?
do you know how happy we were last time .
as happy as the happiest couples in the world.
i read our past messages & it really makes me cry
seeing those sweets words & the sweetest thing you did.
Thats why i really prayed that you'll come back, again.
ill be waiting , i will .
i know how serious of what had happen .
& it is also pain of what had happen .
but i'm sorry , if i'm really the reason to it .
if i recall the past , i can really sense your happiness .
But i really hoped you will live your life happy
even without me . i know you will .
if your stressed now , talk to me ,
im just here . longed for you .
i know some times we need to broke our promises
i know , " i promise " is fake .
because we really need to break it , for some reasons .
But for me , i wouldnt want to lose you , no matter what .
Neither i want to lose the one who brightens up my life .
the one who brings colour to my life .
the one who change my life . & the one who holds my heart .
Do you dare , letting go of my heart ?
do you ? because i really cant afford ,
letting go of you , because i really love you .
so much ..
i know we have many things to do .
How about Sky ?
How about Angel ?
How about Winter ?
i really want them to be borned .
it really makes my heart pain ,
after knowing that you have a fading away feeling.
Baby , i gave my love & heart for you .
i gave my everything to you ..
You know that , people describe us as " SWEET "
people envy us because we are so sweet with each other.
im always been proud of you , not ashamed your mine .
but im really thankful although things aren't the same now.
you'll remain in my heart , until forever .
im glad you came and gave me the happiness that
no one could ever gave me .
you made me smile , the smile that no one could ever imagine .
the greatest love that anyone could never known .
& that love that you shown ,
is the really the best of all ...........

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/ is it over ?